Saturday, October 30, 2010 || 9:34 AM
pretty (: and skinny legs much O_O
omggg last day before armidale.. T_T ive found out that THERES NO INTERNET IN ARMIDALE. OMFG. sighhh im gona die. and i havnt started packing yet LOL i really should.. but i dno wat to take -__- had a dream last night that i got to armidale and forgot to pack any tops.. LOOOL yerr.. :/ dno wat happened after that woke up at 8.40 this morn and spazzed coz vball game was at 8.45 and i went upstairs and my mum was still asleep then i figured there wasnt much point waking her up to go coz like the earliest id get to stra is like 9.20 nwais lool except now i cant get back to sleep -__-
i hate kylie minogue. LOL had to say that coz im listening to a song of her now. her voice is so annoying
OMG jen is going to a formal and she gets all this makeup and new shoes and a dress and and ommgshhh formal shopping HAHA so exciting. gahhhh jeaallouuuussss
FINALLY finished packing for armidale.. and i hav 3 bags. O_O a suitcase + cr bag + backpack thing to carry around in the day.. i wonder if thats too much.. oh well pfft cbf to unpack anything. and it better be coldish up there.. coz i packed for coldish weather.. -__- hehe and cr bag is like full of foooddd.. well not really theres not that much but heh
GOODBYE INTERNET FOR THE NEXT 5DAYS ILL MISS YOU ):
Thursday, October 28, 2010 || 9:52 PM
where'd you go,
i miss you so.
seems like it's been forever
that you've been gone...~
we were closer than we'd ever been before. so how and why did we suddenly start drifting apart so much?
well i suppose it hasnt been that long, but it feels like forever.
i miss you.
but i don't think you miss me.
so never mind.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010 || 10:15 PM
atelophobia: the fear of imperfection, of not being enough.
GOSSIP GIRL.
why is gossip girl such a good show T_T and i hav to wait a wk between every episode omggg so long farrout. and then after every ep of gg something shit happens and i always end up depressed. WHY ARE CHUCK AND BLAIR STILL NOT TOGETHER. nwaaiiisss
almost got killed twice today all coz of dabaja -___- LOL coz we went to burwood and then coz shes jst so smart she decides to wlk out of westfield through the carpark coz we were closer to the carpark and then you know that massive ramp thing that the cars drive out of?? yea well we didnt know how to get out of the carpark so we jst walked up that and then hlfway up i turned round and a car is coming up behind us so we start running up this massive ramp and then jump to the side jst as the car goes past. I COULDVE DIED. then wen we were crossing the road dabaja jst randomly runs across so i thought she'd already checked for cars and i ran after her.. and hlfway across the road i realise a car is coming and we're both like running for our lives.. LOL. I COULDVE DIED AGAIN.
omg armidale is COLD apparently. how gay is that? well its like kinda same as here but a bit colder.. still i was hoping for some countryside SUMMER xD ..but no. -__-
i love rihannas voice. (: hahha go listen to her new song what's my name. SOO GOOD (:
10 days.
Monday, October 25, 2010 || 10:20 PM
I LOVE HER SHOES^^
OH.EM.EFF.GEE.
ok so first a close friend tells me theyre moving overseas so i have a panic attack and freak. and then after like 3mins of emotional spazzing my best friend tells me shes moving to america next year. so then i actually have a heart attack and start crying. and then like 2mins later i find out they were both joking.
FUCK YOU. -____-
oh shit and now i find out my best friends friend might be moving interstate. WTF. so now shes really sad ): sighh too much emotional trauma for one night. i think ill go watch some drama now. (:
nighht~
noo but now my best friend is crying so im tearing up again. wtf why am i so emotional today O_O OMG. im pregnant.
..JKS.
do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
like a house of cards
one blow from caving in?
do you know that there's still a chance for you...
Thursday, October 21, 2010 || 11:14 PM
'"Sometimes," Jem said, "our lives can change so fast that the change outpaces our minds and hearts. it's those times, i think, when our lives have altered but we still long for the times before everything was altered - that is when we feel the greatest pain. i can tell you, though, from experience, you grow accustomed to it. you learn to live your new life, and you can't imagine, or even really remember, how things were before."'
that quote.. is so true its almost weird. O_O
ok is it just me or does EVERYONE seem depressed these days? O_O seriously its like everyones just... dying. sighh and then you feel so useless and lost because you can't do anything to help them.
OMG LOLOLOL ok i was on the train with jo and at stanmore there was like the usual massive crowd of newington guys getting on the train and then jo suddenly had like a MASSIVE SPAZ becausee.. omg guess who we saw... ANTHONY. the anthony that we all used to stalk at chinese school LOOOOL aka 'hot-back anthony'. bahahhaha me and jo like cracked up and and he was on OUR CARRIAGE but we couldnt see his face so then i walked past him [because he might recognise jo coz she and rena and co used to massively stalk him :L] and and got pics. i cbf to upload though but OMG it was funny :L
Wednesday, October 20, 2010 || 11:08 PM
am i crazy for wanting you,
baby do you think you could want me too...
do you see things the way i do
i just wanna know that you feel it too
omg im so tired these days T_T i even fell asleep on the train and almost missed my stop except i dno something made a really loud noise and i woke up and realised the train was at town hall :L
ermm pfft i give up. nothing interesting to say uh.
did you know tumblrs gone purple in memory of like 6 teenagers who comitted suicide because they were being bullied for being gay. and two of them were only like 13 T_T so depressing. this is in america btw. clearly america is gay[..no pun intended O_O] and extremely discriminative. -____- stupid.
DAMMIT 11:12 just missed 11.11
ok my lifes boring. so if ur reading this sorry for wasting your time with boredom
Friday, October 15, 2010 || 9:35 PM
the stars are hard to find tonight,
but when i see it, it shines
and once i know it's there i can't lose sight of it.
kind of like you.
i love this time of the year when its warm during the day, not too hot and not too cold (: and it rains every night. dont u love the sound of rain? especially while ur lying in bed trying to sleep and omg THUNDERSTORMS i love it when it storms while im in bed (: dont get why people would be scared of thunderstorms. theyre like epic. around like 7pm-ish is the best time (: its like getting dark but its still warm, but like cool as well and and yeaa lool i was sitting in the garden with an umbrella over my head coz i didnt want my phone to get wet for like an hr and my mum thought id like gone missing or something :L
omg my internets been capped for like.. 2wks already and arrghhh im dying of boredom. and i wana catch up on gg and 90210 and himym T_T you know now that exams are over so i dnt need to study and i hav no internet so i cant watch anything or even go on tumblr.. my life is so ... boring and like.. pointless O_O dno wat to do everyday wen i get home.. so ive started reading again (:
farkk clarinet exam tmrw. shoot me. and coz ive been practising so much the past 2wks i now hav like a cut on the inside of my mouth from my braces when i play which means that its gona KILL wen i play tmrw T_T
omg tmrw.. i hav to wake up at like 6.30 to play 2 vball games and then straight after i hav my clarinet exam and then after that i have my chinese skl exam coz i missed it last term. arrghhh
my mum said something to me today that made me realise something. you see my bros and i like argue all the time and i dnt spend that much time with them or i dno play with them or wteva and she told me today that in a few years when theyre teenagers itll be too late to be close to my bros. theyll have grown up and if im not already in their lives by then, they wont want me in their life anymore. ok, its not like im not close to them at all like we love each other heaps and stuff i jst dnt tlk to them that much.. except on family holidays maybe. :/ its funny though coz when i was like 10 i used to look forward to my bros growing up and being like 7ish and going to skl already, but now that they are i want them to be in like yr 7 so i can stlk their fb and i dno their fangirls ;] ...but theyre never gona be at the same maturity level as me coz theyre always gona be 7yrs younger than me so i should probs accept that and stop waiting for them to grow up to be close to them, before its too late.
i wonder if that makes any sense.. :/ oh well it does to me.
whenever i'm around you, or whenever i see you
i feel like i need to prove myself to you
like i need to prove that i'm happy, that i'm fine without you
and each time it gets harder and harder
because deep down i know
i'm not fine
and i can feel your mocking laughter because i know that you know too
but if i'm honest with myself,
it's not reallyyou that i miss...
it's what we had
Wednesday, October 13, 2010 || 9:19 PM
HOW CUTE IS THAT YELLOW THING ^^ anyone know wats its name is?? :/
havent blogged for a while.. i think NWAIS IM FEELING HIGH ATM X] third day back at skl T_T feels like its been ages already sighhh. oh well this terms a short one so thats good hehe ^^
lets see.. OMG DABAJA IS MY GOD. she actually is like god. i worship her. :L she managed to convince ms knapman to move me from group 1 to group 2 for armidale and like that.. is like amazing O_O coz the whole accelerated maths class has to be in group 1 which is why ms knapman wuldnt let me move coz otherwise id hav no maths class :L hehe but u see ms knapman really needed people to move out of group1 coz of the new girls or somethin and dabaja was like the only person who culd move or something and dabaja was like oh but if i move christine has to move too blablabla probs wen on some rant of hers and then I GET TO MOVE (: haha which is good coz it means i wont be a loner for 2 wks :L oh but apparently.. coz like i hav no maths class and ill miss all the things im meant to learn and ms knapman told dabaja she'd even tutor me.. which.. O_O yea.. not looking forward to.. tutored by ms knapman O_O fml scary.
nwais ommggg i read this extremely depressing but good book T_T called beautiful malice and its like.. jst.. a completely depressing story. THE GIRLS SISTER WAS RAPED AND MURDERED. HER FRIEND TURNS OUT TO BE A BITCH WHO MAKES EVERYONES LIVES SHIT AND LIKE DESTROYS A FAMILY. AND THE GIRLS LOVER DIES. LIKE WTTFFFF T_T ...i actually cried wen he died. and i never cry in books LOL
3days.
...til my clarinet exam. fml im sooo scared. lilke im actually gona fail.. ARGH i hate music exams theyre so much scarier than any other exam. playing solo.. under pressure.. with some old wrinkly lady staring at me.. and writing down how shit i am.. and the room is always like DEAD SILENT and its jst scary. FML
oh yea. got textiles exam back.. and... T_T arghhh i srsly hope its not the mark they put on our report.. :/ coz if it is.. omg my mum will murder me T_T but theyll probs add the practical mark and.. do some stuff.. hopefully theyll map it up coz my class doesnt hav any super smart ppl who get like 100% (: LOL and its small.. but.. ARGHHH fuck. T_T if my other exams are like the same as that.. then omg.. my mum... sighh.
if only...
Sunday, October 10, 2010 || 1:13 AM
fear is not an option.
went to city with friends today lool ermm walked around rock markets for a few hours and OMG i saw jassinta fong O_O loool she was working with her dad on like this cupcake stall or something and she gave us free cupcakes coz shes so nice ^^ yummyy lol that was like my breakfast coz i didnt have time to eat before i left home :L
walked round for a few hours then caught one of those free city bus things and got off at some random stop.. OH near central stn i think.. :/ dno. we went to the jb hifi in world square and played games on the ipad for like 10mins :L ommgg we were playing flight control and like SO STRESSFUL even playing together we didnt get close to beating the high score -___- so noob
hehe went to typo and i finally got the wooden letters that ive been wanting for like ages ^^ except my mum will probs rage at me when i put them up coz she'll be like it doesnt even do anything such a waste of money -___- ..but meh oh well it looks pretty :L
umm oh wlked to kinokunya.. or however u spell the name and the stationery there is soooo coool 8] they had all these diff types of sticky notes for all these diff purposes like this one called 'bitch citation' and it had a massive list of diff types of bitches with like boxes nxt to them and then there was this voodoo doll sticky note and there were some nice ones too.. but they werent as funny :L
so scary coz then i heard someone sneeze and it sounded like my mums sneeze and i started panicking that my mum was there so we left :L ermmm went home and played sims (:
and now i shuld probs sleep soon coz i hav to wake up early tmrw to take my sis to her swimming lesson then i think we're going to the zoo :/ somethin like that
Tuesday, October 5, 2010 || 11:20 PM
hey stephen, i know looks can be deceiving
but i know i saw a light in you
and as we walked we were talking
i didn't say half the things i wanted to
why? why? wwwhhhhyyyyy?? why not?
went to city with friends today and.. forgot wat we did already O_O LOL oh yeaa we waited around for like ages before steph and stuff showed up late as usual -___- went to this VIP room or something and it had like games and a computer/tv thing and we started watching like kpop mvs and stuff coz we failed at tryin to make the wii work :L
ermm went to pepper lunch and you know you like cook ur own food there? lool and i think its krn coz the food had weird names :L nwais went to K for like hlf hr lol and then yanni added another hr and steph and matt like went spaz because they wanted to go ice skating and we were gona miss the session if we didnt leave so then like after 20mins of them arguing and steph and matt tryin to drag ppl to friggin macquarie to ice skate, we split up :L
JST made our train lol but we didnt hav time to buy a ticket so we jst like randomly ran past the security guy and got on the train then realised that we'd dogged matt and his friend [bob] who had actually bought tickets LOL ermm came up with all these bs excuses for why none of us had our tickets and they were all retarded.. like steph got raped on the train and her bag was stolen :L except didnt matter anway because there were no guards at macquarie so we jst ran behind randoms wen they wlked through
failed at ice skating.. lool but i didnt fall (: oh yea this guy.. maxwell i think fell coz they were like trying to spin or somethin and his whole back was wet lool looked painful though :/
nwais and now im trying to get my gay internet to load the new ep of GG (: grrrr why doesnt megavideo work these days??
i think you made me addicted to sunsets.
hey stephen, i've been holding back this feeling
so i got some things to say to you
i've seen it all, so i thought
but i never seen nobody shine the way you do
can't help it if there's no one else
mmm, i can't help myself
Sunday, October 3, 2010 || 12:48 AM
have you ever loved somebody that
never really loved you back...
'cause loving you is like
lighting a candle in the wind
got bored today so i decided to curl my hair for the first time :L took me like.. 2hrs coz im so noob.. LOL hmmm.. doesnt actually look that diff. kinda looks like wen i wake up after sleeping with damp hair..only slightly curlier
omg was tlking to jen all night and ive found another person like me (: hehe we both wanna honeymoon for like a yr and travel the world 8] ommgg so cool.. that is gona be my life goal now .. now i jst need to like somehow actually be rich enough to do that.. :/ sighh
fml i hate daylight savings T_T losing an hr of sleep.. AND i hav to wake up early to go on some picnic with fam friends or somethin like that.. so im gona get like.. 6hrs of sleep at most.. T_T gaahh. i shuld sleep now..~