Monday, November 29, 2010 || 9:17 PM
oh, i had the time of my life
and i never felt this way before
and i swear, it's the truth
and i owe it all to you~
i had a very good day today XD
soo DABAJAS BACK FROM SINGAPOREEE YEAAAHHHH (: hahaa i missed that little pieface. so spent like the whole day listening to all her stories about singapore and omgg I AM GOING NEXT YEAR. DEFS. IT SOUNDS LIKE SO MUCH FUN HAHA
had a party in period 6 and ommmgg there was so much food its not even funny. like after the first cookie [which was really yumm] i already started feeling sick. hmm school was good and funny :L lools
i had a good afternoon (: and and then i went home and looool i was sooooo high its not even funny. lol coz i didnt feel like sitting in my room being bored and shit so then i was gonna go for a jog to burn off all the crap i ate today. and i was running down near the water and then I SAW A PARK. well playground thing. and and SWINGS LIKE OMFG SWINGS. HAAHHAHHA so then i was swinging on the swings for ages. and behind the swings was this rock wall and i was sooo tempted to climb up it and i totally could have done it.. except that theres heaps of apartments around that park so if anyone was looking out the window watching the retarded high teen in a hoodie randomly climbing up a rock wall while singing loudly... yeaa they might think i was on drugs or something. so i didnt LOL climbed onto this other thing instead and jst sat there singing for like ages (:
then i went home and still didnt feel like sitting in my room so then i went to this place outside my house and was jst running around and skipping and jumping and being retarded and shit. and there was like a bunch of kids playing there and i swear they were following me. i couldnt hear wat they were saying to each other though coz i had my ipod up really loud but yea. everywhere i went they would like.. follow me -___- got so annoying coz i wanted to be retarded and high but thats kinda hard wen u have like 7 little kids staring at you like ur mentally retarded. pfft.
nwais so i went around picking flowers and pulling the petals of them because.. dw but yea. and then i was sad for like a few seconds coz they all had even number of petals.. except then the last flower i picked which was the one i got from my maths night. it had an odd number of petals and i was like.. YAAAAAYYYY and did a happy dance LOL (: dw it doesnt make sense coz u dnt get it... and im not explaining XD
mmm so basically i was really high for like 2hrs and jumping around. it was good exercise actually (: lol then i had a shower. i love showers. such a good relaxing time hahahha not that ive done anything today :L
and now its almost 10 and i have done nothing all day except run around like a retard and shower (: WHAT A LOVELY DAY~ ♥
thankyouu for making me so happy (:
Sunday, November 28, 2010 || 9:40 PM
HAHAHHAHAH omg that picture made me crack up for like a whole period :L
i'm nothing like the stories they tell...
so here we go again
listening to your friends
that don't wanna see nobody
happy if it's not them...
so if you choose to believe that i'm doing you wrong
i'll be gone with the wind.
got to miss maths tutor and went to friends house today (: we all went swimming in her pool which was like fucking cold but it was fun haha. tried tanning in the clouds haha except then it rained.
okay cbf to write anything.
bye~
why can't people just be respectful?
i know it sounds stupid and lame
but sometimes i feel like getting the 'respect for others' document that my school is so obsessed with
and just shoving it in peoples faces.
it seems to me like some people need to go back to kindergarten
just learn some manners.
then maybe things like this wouldnt happen
everyone would be so much happier.
they'd get a happier childhood
and maybe not be so messed up.
id have a somewhat normal life.
be nice because everyone you meet is fighting their own battle.
Friday, November 26, 2010 || 9:16 PM
'she wound her hands into his hair, as she'd wanted to do since the first time she'd seen him.'
- clary, city of bones
GUESS WHAT EVERYONE.. i had an amazingly productive night last night. i finished TWO assignments :O are you proud of me? ..ofc you are (:
woke up early for band this morn, shouldnt have bothered though coz there were only like 10 ppl there and we just sat in a circle playing random shit. so then the teacher let us off like 20mins early. so me and karina were wlking out of skl and it was like 1min to the bell and mr sinclair is wlking into skl and hes like 'where are you girls going' blablabla.. tells us to go back in so we go back and follow him in until he turns round the corner and we run out to the train stn and karina bought me a massive V hehehe (: except then we're wlking to our lockers with V and lollies and we bump into mr sinclair again -___- and he sees us and is like 'you disobeyed me. i want to see you both at recess' .. only i didnt go coz he doesnt know me so he cant track me down (: apparently he told karina that he would let us off but if we did it again we'd get a detention. but like.. WTF sif we can get a detention just for that -___- pffft.
drank my massive V in like under 5mins and was sooooo hyper for the whole day (: until after lunch lol. i think i should drink V more.. it makes me hyperr hehhehe and its fun (:
double pe: did zumba. in my uniform coz i forgot my stuff. it was hot and gross. and tiring. but fun at first lol
had a good afternoon then came home and cleaned my room. i can actually see the surface of my desk for the first time in like weeks :O ahhahha its quite amazing yesh XD
Tuesday, November 23, 2010 || 12:03 AM
had a really good day (: hahah speech exams all morning so i missed periods 1, 2, 3 hehe which is good coz i still havnt done my english collage.. LOL and then tmrw in english is that teacher vs. students soccer thing so i dnt hav to hand mine in til thurs hehe (: i shuld do it though... nwaiss then we had house gym which was a bludge .. but i reckn house gym gets shitter every year.. oh except fergusons was actually pretty good considering we hav no gymnasts :L i dnt think we came last for once (:
hanging around at skl now.. coz im such a cool kid. lol waiting for maths night yay.. -cough- OMG OH YEAA MY VBALL TEAM GOT INTO SEMI-FINALS :O i think they mustve made a mistake though coz im not even sure that weve won a single game yet... i know we tied one.. dno if we've won any :/ LOL oh well wteva semi-finals bro (:
you don't know what you've got
'til it's gone~
and i had almost everything.
why was i so blind?
...
because you listen to me when im depressed
it doesn't seem to make you like me less...
when i freak you understand...
i could get used to this~
Monday, November 22, 2010 || 9:16 PM
OMG ok MY INTERNET IS UNCAPPED FUCKKYEAAAHHH. so now im like hardcore tumblring (:
speech exam tmrw and i have finally memorised everything (: except.. ill probs forget it all tmrw morning and be like.. umm shit? :L oh well. and then house gym (: woooot i love house gym except that fergusons is always shit and embarassing LOL and house mufti :/ ok wtf what am i supposed to wear? i own no green. at all. i dont wear green -___- and we're not allowed to wear shorts and its hot tmrw.. teachers are so gay.
WOOT im allowed out on sunday.. if i finish 2 weeks worth of maths tutor hw before then :/ my teachers so dog he told my mum ive only handed in 3/7 weeks of homework.. -___- but not my fault.. i missed 3 lessons.. so really there was only 1 wk that i didnt hand in hw.. loool but i have to finish 2 weeks of hw :/ which will take forever coz its so fucking hard. T_T sighh
OH YEA almost forgot. i said id mention lizzy in my blog.. soo LIZZY I LOVEYOUUU (: even more than a fat kid loves cake ;D
blair: i don't love you anymore, but it takes more than even you to destroy blair waldorf
chuck: your world would be easier if i didn't come back
blair: thats true. but it wouldnt be my world without you in it
...
chuck: i know what you did blair. its despicable even for you. do you hate me so much you can't stand to see me happy?
blair: no-
chuck: so why did you drive the person i care most about out of town?
blair: eva left? chuck i never meant to-
chuck: make her leave me? of course you did. i need to know why. is it possible you still love me?
blair: how could i still love you after what you did?
chuck: so you did it just to hurt me. eva made me into someone i was proud to be. you just brought back my worst self. this means war blair
blair: chuck-
chuck: me versus you. no limits.
...
chuck: if i could say something. i for one can fully corroborate miss waldorf's story. she was indeed having an affair with Professor Forrester. i know this because i keep tabs on everyone blair sees and talks to, due to my insatiable jealousy. though she did state something to the effect that he didn't quite satisfy her like i used to.
blair: -looks at him weirdly- its true.
...
-spoiler alert to anyone who hasnt seen latest gg ep, which you should have by now noobs- CHUCK AND BLAIR FINALLY ADMIT THAT THEYRE IN LOVE ...FINALLY.
chuck: i love you
blair: i love you too. i don't expect you to wait
chuck: if two people were meant to be together eventually they'll find their way back
blair: do you really believe that?
chuck: i do
blair: so do i
haha ok ill stop with my gg quotes now (:
Friday, November 19, 2010 || 9:59 PM
i ain't gonna take no shit from no one...
i can do anything, anything i want
ok so as you may have noticed.. i changed my template XD haha coz i got really bored and it was the only thing i could think of doing that would kill a few hours.
'i love my life as a dickhead. all my friends are dickheads too. come with me lets be dickheads. havent you heard? being a dickheads cool'
ive had
that song stuck in my head like all day LOL listen to it its kinda retarded and sounds like 3oh3 :L
nwais OMMGG dabaja and the rest of thimun people are going to singapore for a week.. which means im not gona see her for a whole week T_T and i wont have anyone to get in trouble with in english -___- how gay.
should i start watching glee? i dno.. :/ actually oh thats an easy problem to solve. lool ill jst watch it in the hols coz ill probs be heaps bored. mmmm good idea XD
im beginning to doubt i'll ever have the courage to tell you
Thursday, November 18, 2010 || 10:59 PM
it feels like im living on another planet
no one seems to get me
no one understands
these people i see, they dont seem real to me
ommgg just finished my hist presentation and ahhh so happyy (: its gona be like 10mins if i ramble and ms osborne wants us to ramble so hehehe.
ohh i was wlking home today from karate and i went some random way through all these like deserted streets and stuff and and coz u culd like see the water and it was sunset at that time and OMGSH sooo pretty. look i even took pics of it (: haha but its on my fone camera so its shit quality but like u can see the colours (: so pretty.
it looked better in real life but still look at the colours. how pretty is it (:
kind of like omg u know in the cosmology bklet oh wait no in the textbook it has pics of like a nebula and supernova and all that other star stuff. ommgg SO PRETTY stars look so coool when theyre like exploding and being formed and stuff. (: its like a massive cloud of sparkly dust and gas and colour and light.
OH FUCK. i jst remembered.. i still have the aus hist quiz thing i need to do before it closes tmrw.. arrghhh fml. but im sleeeppyyy T_T ..oh well ill do it tmrw during.. hmmm science? actually that dvd we're watching is actually interesting lool so maybe in maths OH YEA coz we hav a work lesson. yup ill do it in maths and eng (: good idea
alright. well goodnight everybody~
Wednesday, November 17, 2010 || 6:07 PM
tomorrow, tomorrow is a different day
peer support training today and ommgg it was really boring. LOL it was jst like a day long tutor group session of doing those peer booklet things. soo booring... but oh well im a peer leader now hehehheh x]
came home and looked at the massive pile of clothes ive been meaning to put into my wardrobe for like 2wks now and got really annoyed that the stupid massive pile was ruining my room -___- LOL so i spent like an hr reorganising my wardrobe. so now i have one massive garbage bag of old clothes ill put in the garage later.. [by later i mean probs in a few months wen i decide to clean my room properly LOL] and a second garabage bag of old uniform so that if my mum ever asks for it to sell i wont hav to bother searching for it i can just had her the bag XD see im so good at planning how to be lazy (: except i ran out of colourful coathangers so now hlf my wardrobe isnt colour coded -____- LOL yes i colour code my coathangers coz my wardrobes always open and from my desk i can see it and i hate looking over and seeing ugly coathangers
had a good d&m with jess on the way home (:
so jealous of anyone watching harry potter at midnight T_T i must watch harry potter. D:
Monday, November 15, 2010 || 9:50 PM
HAHAHA yerr coz im awesome XD [which is why you shuld give up(; ..]
omgg im really bored right now. except i have soo much work to do its not even funny T_T im gonna be literally doing whole assignments the night before. arghhh fml.
my mum. fucking capped. my internet. what am i supposed to do now T_T that means no gossip girl, no tumblr, no fast fb stlking, no fast googling, no youtube, no music downloading, no himym, no 90210, no thing. NOTHING. gaahhh so annoying.
HARRY POTTER COMES OUT ON THURSDAY HEHEHEHE exciting shizz
life goal: take a really good photo of hyde park at night because its so pretty (: oh and the sunset ..but none of that orange sunset shit. i want purples and reddy pinks so much prettier XD
ps. you suck
...balls ;D
pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel like you're less than
fucking perfect
pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
you're fucking perfect to me.
Sunday, November 14, 2010 || 7:09 PM
for what it is worth: it's never too late, or in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. there's not time limit, stop whenever you want . you can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. we can make the best or the worst of it. i hope you make the best of it. and i hope you see things that startle you. i hope you feel things you never felt before. i hope you meet people with a differnt point of view. i hope you live a life you're proud of. if you find that you're not, i hope you have the strength to start all over again.
- Benjamin Button, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
is that blair?? i cant tell.. :/ oh well she's pretty whoever it is LOL
ahh don't you love summer? (: and guess wat? this week is gona be warm as well YAYAYAYAYAYAY ..well relatively warm i guess. nwais went to the newtown festival today coz i had to read out this story thing anyways it was actually really fun. lool i went with family and the festival is like MASSIVE and there were sooo many people. hehe my mum was nice and she bought me this top which i shall try on again after i have my shower (: i love getting new stuff. especially clothes hehehehe. nwaiss i wana go to the newtown festival again next yr only maybe with friends coz it looks like funn
came home and stood in the sun for a bit then spent an hr writing my peer leader application thing with harriets help hehe but its still all my own stuff :L omg im so proud of it (: because its like a page long of NON-WAFFLE :O hahahha a typed page too coz i cbf to hand write it.
omg shall i outline my extremely productive weekend? too bad im going to anyway.- finished my pd assignment
- finished my elective hist assignment
- finished my peer leader application
- finished this thing i had to do for chinese school
that is like.. so much productivity considering i usually do nothing over the weekends LOL. ofc i still have science, english, aus hist, aus geo left to go T_T OH YEA i also need to remmeber to get a costume for that bushdance thing. gahhh ill hav to do it tmrw.. MUST REMEMBER.. :/
one more thing.. i think my internet is capped AGAIN. you know why? because my mums started watching movies and dramas and etc 24/7 -____- so annoying. sighhOMG I ALMOST FORGOT. cant believe i almost forgot.. but you see amanda txts me this morning and and THERES A KESHA CONCERT NXT YR AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH and coz im not going to usher i may be able to go to kesha instead (: hehehhehe so excited i just need to find some fellow kesha fans hahha
Thursday, November 11, 2010 || 5:13 PM
sometimes you have to let things go, so there's room for better things to come into your life.
ahhh happy again (: which is weird coz i had a shit morning at skl.. O_O really shit. LOOOL but then i had a good afternoon and wind ensemble was cancelled YEAAA so i went and bought a drink and wlked home slowly and then sat in my garden for like an hr doing hw while attempting to tan just my legs in the sun (: the sun is so hot though. T_T and i actually finished some work and now im home alone so i feeel happyy (:
LOLOL another reason why my choice must be the right one. because no matter how much shit happens, no matter how many different pieces of bullshit i see and hear; you make me happy again. you and your idealism. mmm it brings me hope. XD ..but then i hate to see them suffer. T_T aiyaaa what can a mere girl like me do. i wonder if anyone understands this? hmm well if you do then i promise if you need me i will always have your back, and even if you don't need me i will have your back.
today is 11/11 (: according to steph it is also pepero day.. because the number 1 looks like a pepero stick O_O .. koreans have strange celebrations. LOOLOLOL oh well steph gave us all pepero so im not complaining (: LOL
my lesson of the year: always trust your instincts. because when people break your trust it is almost always the 'friends' you half suspected. only you didn't want to believe that little voice. so what happens? you end up getting hurt anyway. then you feel like an idiot for trusting those 'friends' instead of yourself.
second lesson of the year: just don't trust anyone in the first place. everything's bullshit. kindness pays off in the end. bitches may be bitches now, but someday they will fall. because lies never last, secrets are always discovered. the truth always comes out.
you stood by me, said everything's gonna be alright...
my hands start shaking and my heartbeat's racing
Wednesday, November 10, 2010 || 6:26 PM
i just wanted to... so tempted... but... i cant.
...
so close, yet so far. the words were on the tip of my tongue. i just couldn't get them out. again.
...
you're annoying. -___-
...
well-rounded bitch.
...
even now, you still manage to affect me so much. maybe because you'll always have an impact on my life.
...
i'm not fucking losing. i'm not letting anyone win. i'm taking myself out of the game because you know what? it's stupid and brings nothing but trouble.
mmm as you can see. i am not happy right now. srsly why does every good day have to be followed by a bad one? it's like.. i have to be punished for every moment of happiness.
BLEHH~ fuck it. right im doing my homework now.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010 || 11:49 PM
be strong now because things will get better,
it might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever;
happy for the first time.. in a long time. mmmm. its WEIRD.. coz i dno why im so unusually happy today O_O.. maybe because im FREEEE. YEA BOY IM FUCKING FREEEE. free of my own fear. HAH pretty stupid. oh well wteva i am XD maybe i shuldnt question my happiness so much.. coz then i realise theres not THAT much to be happy about.. and my happiness dies a little.. T_T well. thats annoying.
LALALA~ wats the weather like tmrw? ..lets see.. wednesday.. oh WTF its 25-19 and its thunderstormy again. WHERE THE FUCK IS SUMMER jeez. we have some hot summery days... and then it storms.. and then we have a week of cold days. wtf. -___- cant god tell that im clearly trying to tan my legs here. and thats hard to do wen its cloudy and stormy every second day. LOOL
i had a good afternoon today (: on the bus and train. LOL good time. good time. lalala... omg jason derulo concert was on today. SO JEALOUS OF ANYONE WHO WENT T_T i love -sings- jason derulo omffgggg. soo gheeeyyy. and by the sounds of it it was mosh pit? MORE JEALOUS T_T
jubjubjubb~~ i like ms knapman (: LOL random yerr.. but shes nice to me HAHHHAA meh. wat else do i like? textiles. mmmm cant wait til hols wen ill hav as much time as i want to play around with clothes.. and omg shopping ahhhh -dies-
you know what i hate? armidale assignments. armidale booklet. just any form of work in general. oh yea speech exam.. shit. need to memorise for that :/ and then.. ITS THE END OF THE TERM. mann term 4 is less bludgy than term 3. how does that even work T_T.
blahh blahh black sheep have you any woool... lalalla...~~ ok dont ask. im a bit retarded today.
meehhh GOODNIGHHT WHOEVER READS MY BLOG LOLOLOL~ (:
Monday, November 8, 2010 || 6:55 PM
i'd catch a grenade for ya
throw my hand on a blade for ya
i'd jump in front of a train for ya
you know i'd do anything for ya
...but you wont do the same
argh somethings wrong with me, im like dying of fatigue. i got.. almost 6hrs sleep last night? yea coz i slept at like almost 1 lol. but still thats not that bad for me.. and the night before i got 10hrs sleep so really i should be fine. but but... the world is moving.. 8].. no srsly i feel dizzy and my head feels... wooooooooozzyyyyy. i dno wat that means but it feels like weeeiiiiiirrrrddd...O_O lol i fell asleep for like an hr jst now coz i was trying to study for maths school cert tmrw but i was too tired and then i actually fell asleep ..and then i woke up and i felt so dizzy i could barely stand.. and i was like stumbling around the room trying to not fall on anything painful... argh even right now i feel dizzyy
lol i was eating dinner and my mums like 'you've been looking alot healthier the past 2 weeks'
me: -stares at her, too busy trying not to fall off the chair to waste energy responding-
well school cert tomorrow... i really should study T_T ok im going to study, shower and then go to sleep.
but wtf. wat kind of illness makes you extremely tired and dizzy and like.. cant balance properly.. O_O i only have a cold... OH SHIT. WAT IF I HAV GLANDULAR FEVER...
glandular fever:
OH its known as infectious mononucleosis. is that the 'mono' disease in twilight? O_O weird. well nwais commonly referred to as 'kissing disease' as it is spread by close contact and passed from one person to another via the mouth.
- sore throat
- fever
- symptoms similar to tonsilitis
- headache
- nausea [especially when eating fatty or oily meals]
- swollen glands in throat, groin and arms
- lack of energy
ok well.. i have a sore throat... well actually i dont i just have a cold. no fever... hmm my tonsils look normal to me.. O_O and they feel normal lol. headache.. ahhh.. i think im getting one.. ow. no nausea.. no swollen glands i think. big lack of energy. oh and i also havnt kissed anyone.
so maybe my bodys finally dying from my lack of sleep over the past 3yrs of my life. sighhh
Friday, November 5, 2010 || 7:14 PM
when did i stop fearing you? when i realised you are not worth being afraid of. you have nothing over me; you can do nothing to me; you're words are meaningless; you're actions futile. you're not worth it.
IVE NEVER FELT SO HAPPY TO BE HOME.
hehe came back from armidale and had a massively looonng HOT shower omg. you know the hot water kept running out at armidale? so halfway through ur shower while u still have shampoo in ur hair the water turns ice cold and u freeze to death and ur forced to finish washing ur hair in the sink -__-
CONS:
- ice cold showers
- shit food [we went to coles almost everyday just to buy food]
- museums are really boring
- everyone got sick [luckily i didnt get too sick coz some ppl were throwing up and stuff]
- the weather is retarded; like freezing cold in the morning then really hot 2hrs later. one day was so cold i got a headache from the wind -___-
- teachers were being bitches; OMG ok you know ms hayek? one night she actually came in and started insulting us like she called karina filthy and disgusting or somethin and then told me i had no brain cells and common sense because apparently my bed wasnt made properly -___- then me and karina started tlking back coz we were really pissed and LOL it was kinda funny afterwards
- lack of internet
- putting girl friends together 24/7 for a whole week is not a good idea. seriously by the last night, i walked out into the hall and EVERYONE is crying and having fights and stuff. like at least one person from every room cried at some point during the week and.. yea. and the ppl who arent crying are like going around hugging everyone lol
- OH AND THE BOOKLETS. those booklets have more work in them than i do in like a mth at skl.. like WTF
PROS:
- no parents for a week (:
- being with friends
- making new friends
- chasing sheep was actually really fun lol
- finding out things
nwais now i have to write a chinese essay about armidale or else im apparently gona fail this terms report T_T then hopefully ill be able to catch up on GG (: ehhehe
oh and one more thing, WTF HAPPENED TO THE 'see wall-to-wall' PART ON FB?? as if they would get rid of that it was so useful
tomorrow, tomorrow is a different day
