Thursday, January 27, 2011 || 11:40 AM
BEST AUSTRALIA DAY YET (:
hahhahha me and mandy went over to dabajas house and chilled for a bit and went in her pool and stuff. if any of you know dabaja then ud know she wears ..interesting clothes but then me and mandy are like... 'you are not wearing that on australia day' -___- so then we spent like an hr searching her wardrobe for some 'normal-looking' clothes LOL it took a while but we rolled up some shorts and found some small singlet of hers and made her wear it hehehehe ...except then her mum wouldnt let her leave the house in it -___- so that was gay LOL
anyways we go down to carrs park which is like..where all the wogs go on aus day to watch fireworks and meet up with ppl and stuff. anyways LOL we met some guy called mohammad wasabi or something.. LOL that wasnt his actual name but it sounded like wasabi :L OH YEA I FORGOT LOL while we were walking down to carrs park we walked past this yellow house and there were like a few guys taking boxes of beer out of their car and then theyre like to us 'hey girls, house party tonight come join us' and we were like... HEHEHE keep walking :L
anyways it gets really dark and coz we're that smart we didnt bring a torch and like the path to carrs park is pitch black and its like basically through the bush and its all really creepy :L anyways we're holding hands walking up the path and dabaja puts on a guys voice coz we dont wanna be attacked hahah and then we pass a group of guys and they see mandy and then a guy shines his torch in her face and wait heres the convo
mandy: wtf man
the guy who is her boyfriend LOL: where do you think you're going
mandy: umm..a house party..
the guy: OOOO can i come??
mandy: uhh.. yea..sure..
dabaja: no you cant come
me: NO LETS GO -push mandy past the guy-
so yes i think her boyfriends probs pissed at her :L oops.
okay NWAIS i think ill skip some parts coz my storys getting long.. LOl okay so we go to the yellow house and we're all like WOOT YES HOUSE PARTY but dabajas clinging to my arm flipping out because shes paranoid her parents will find out and me and mandy are like 'come on lets go' anyways so we walk down the side of their house to get to the back and we stop halfway coz dabajas panicking and shes on the phone to her dad saying 'yes yes we're going to watch the fireworks now' anyways so we walk in and its a really lame party coz theres only a few ppl there hahha and we basically just walk once around their garden and then get bored and leave and on the way out mandy puts on a wog voice and shes like 'THIS IS DAH SHITTEST PARTYY' and then we run in case they decide to chase us with their beer bottles LOL
LOL ok anyways there were too many funny parts of the day/night to describe them all so basically i had a really good australia day hehehhe (:
Monday, January 24, 2011 || 1:59 PM
isn't it funny how no matter what happens the sun will still rise the next morning and set that evening. life goes on and the world remains unchanged. you can almost convince yourself that nothing has changed, that nothing out of the ordinary has happened. except that it has.
i had an amazing weekend (: went to wisemans ferry and stayed at a holiday house with some friends. and my friend tried teaching us to wakeboard and stuff but yea.. we kinda failed at that LOL. i think i managed to stay up for about.. 5 seconds? hahaha well anyways it was heappps funn (: except now every single muscle in my body kills like a bitch. okay i cbf to describe my weekend properly but it was really fun hahahaa.
such a busy last week of holidays.. LOL i think i have like.. 1? 2? days free.. hehehe
people are always saying to have no regrets in life. that you shouldnt regret who you are today because at some point in your past it was who you wanted to be. don't waste time dwelling on the past and living in regret, move forward. i dont know how much of that is just bullshit to help people get over the past and move on, but what if regret isnt the problem. what if your brain says you probably should feel regret, but you know your heart feels nothing. then what? where's the bullshit to help people stop moving forward, to make them feel regret for what they've done?
Friday, January 21, 2011 || 11:38 PM
eventually we all become our own doppelgangers. completely different people who only look the same.
a friend came over today and we went to this park near my house which i havent been to for millions of years. anyways we went down to like the far end of the park where theres this kind of cliff thingo which leads down to a rock beach kinda thing. and and WE DISCOVERED A CAVE LOL well it wasnt really a cave.. and it had already been discovered before coz it was covered in grafitti and tags and shit ..but still :L
the awesome view from the rock cave thingo
ahh im excited im going up to a friends holiday house for the weekend tmrw with some other ppls hehehe except i havnt packed anything yet.. but i cbf.. LOL tmrw morning ill pack T_T which means i need to wake up early.. sighh. anyways yes im excited hehe (:
have a good weekend (:
oh btw. MY INTERNET IS UNCAPPED. FUCKYEAA TUMBLR~
Thursday, January 20, 2011 || 3:35 PM
i close my eyes and i can see a better day
i cant believe theres only one more week left of holidays T_T THATS NOT ENOUGH TIME FOR ME TO DO THINGS. so anyways today i was gonna be good and just stay home and stuff but then i turned on the comp and felt instantly bored LOL sooo i decided to go shopping because its thursday XD anyways i got 2 really awesome tops from general pants that were on sale so they werent like extremely overpriced :L and i realise that no one cares so i will shuttup :L
arghh i got this diff hayfever med because it was cheaper and im asian except then now i realise it was cheaper because its like half as strong -____- which means right now my stupid nose wont stop running and ive used up all the tissues and have to resort to toilet paper. -____- at least my eyes arent itchy LOL. moral of the story: dont be asian and buy cheap shit because YOU WILL DIE. and your nose will suffer. yupp.
never doubt yourself. self-pity is a useless emotion.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011 || 11:26 PM
it's getting kinda weird how it seems like every single person my age that i know has shitloads of problems and shit in their lives. lol obviously because we're all teenagers.. but still. kinda weird. its like once you're a teenager you just feel the need to be angry and create drama and shit amongst the people you're supposed to care about the most. weird huh?
watched love and other drugs today with some friends at the city and shopped around for a bit as well. mmmm i cbf writing anymore.. LOL. kthxbye.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011 || 11:59 PM
what would you try if you had no fear?
hahaha i thought the world should know that today i read twilight LOL. its really a pretty good book, not that im an obsessive fan or anything but still. well its better than the movies anyway.
omg you know what really pisses me off? well my brothers are friends with these two kids who are our neighbours and they come over all the time and ask my bros if they can come out to play and stuff. i dont really care if they come over and ask to play but because we leave our back door open so my cats can go in and out of the house whenever they want, and now the kids just walk into our house whenever they want and like actually go to my bros and ask them to play and at first i didnt really mind but they do it all the time and they wak into my room and just like stand there and in my head im like WTF ARE YOU DOING IN HERE? I DONT EVEN KNOW YOU GET OUT. but ofc i just smile and make conversation with this 5yr old intruder -____- since when was it okay to just walk into peoples houses without being invited in? srsly. and today i was making lunch and they were like ohh it smells so good and stuff and in my head im thinking IF YOU EVEN TRY TO TOUCH MY LUNCH SHITS GONNA GO DOWN. luckily they didnt (: instead they just hung around the dinner table staring at the food. and they came back at dinner as well and just stood there at the dinner table while we're eating and i swear they asked my bros to play 50 times and we said no 50 times because it was already dark. argh its so annoying. -___-
life is so boring with capped internet. i miss tumblr and pretty little liars and himym T_T dammit.
michael is awesome.
happy? XD hahahhaha
FUCK IS IT AUSTRALIAN OPEN?? BUT I LOVE WATCHING THAT. FMLL
Sunday, January 16, 2011 || 9:02 PM
sooo today was a fun day (: hahhaha woke up at 9am
[i know so early] because lizzy was coming over. we went down to this grassy area by the water and photobombed for a bit with my stepdads pro camera hehehe the photos actually werent massive fails like we thought they would be :L hahhaha anyways im trying to upload the photos but fb is being a bitch -___- so ill put some here
i reckon this is actually the coolest photo hehe
bahhahhaha omfg this was so fucking funny. me and lizzy are walking along and we come up to the massive flights of staircases and lizzy's like "OMG! I HAVE A GREAT IDEA. LET'S TAKE A DEAD STARFISH PHOTO" .. so this is the dead starfish photo. bahhahah yes it is me lying face first on the staircases like a starfish.. dont ask me why because i still have no idea. other than that lizzy is a retard (: hahha oh and this was actually kinda painful. its hard lying on stairs.. :/
anyways after that we went to the pool where we sat and talked for ages until the sun came out and we tanned (: hehehhe i dnt think im any tanner though lools. went home and edited the photos and stuff with all the cool effects on picnik and ate caramel slice which were sooo yummmyyy that i ate like 50 pieces :L lizzy wanted to buy some new swimmers from birkenhead so then because we're so povo we trekked all the way across iron cove bridge to birkenhead point instead of catching a bus haha. wasnt that far though except omfg in like super humidity and heat it felt like forever. ended up buying nothing at birkenhead except a $2 bracelet from citybeach and a $4.80 drink from gloria jeans because we were tired and wanted to sit haaha :L trekked all the way back home and watched legally blonde (:
ahhh im so tired now T_T and my legs are sore. i dont think it helped that i was wearing new shoes which were hard and painful on the massive treks to and from birkenhead point :L
Saturday, January 15, 2011 || 8:38 PM
things change. people change. life goes on.
went to burwood with a friend today loool pretty much just walked around a few shops and then went and sat in burwood park :L u know the park is actually alot bigger than it looks and it even has a pond and a little rock bridge thingo :L and there was some christian concert being set up there except they were playing like .. good music hahhahhaha ...well except for all the lyrics about jesus and god and etc. they had one of black eyed peas songs as well
OMGSH MY FRIEND SHOWED ME THIS SHOP LAST NIGHT THAT IS SOOOOO AWESOMMEEE. http://www.oneteaspoon.com.au/ its so amazing.. like omg. hahah its reaaallyy overpriced though, even more overpriced than general pants.. which is pretty bad :/ apparently its on pitt st but ive never seen it before so ill have to look for it nxt time i go to city. anyways its basically umm indie, urban kind of stuff.. i think? well its really cool (:
gahhh i wanna buy like a whole new wardrobe except
- i dont know where to get the clothes i want from
- how am i supposed to afford $100 tops T_T
some of my favourites (:
Friday, January 14, 2011 || 2:50 AM
is it just me or does anyone else have massive emotional ups and downs. one minute youre fine and the world is okay and theres hope but then you see one thing; maybe a photo, or a facebook status, or a comment, or just names, and all of a sudden that ray of hope? yea it disappears. even if you thought about something and smiled 2mins ago, think of the same thing now and it almost disgusts you. it's like there's this constant looming thing at the back of my mind, weighing me down. sure i might forget it for a while, but the smallest thing will trigger that thought and all of a sudden everything else in life seems pointless, stupid, disgusting. is it just me?
okay sorry, i dunno why but my blog has suddenly become this place where i just rant when im unhappy... :/
well didnt do much today as usual :L can't remember if i told you guys but my mums gone overseas til feb so basically i can do almost anything i want hehhehe except that like i need to do all the housework my stepdads too lazy to do -___- so today after dinner i was washing the dishes and cleaning the kitchen and taking out the rubbish and im actually really proud of myself (: hahha seriously the kitchen is like sooooo clean now. maybe its because we're asian but our kitchen is always like a massive mess. theres pots and jars and bottles and packets and various weird machine things everywhere, i dont even get how there is space to cook O_O LOOL but i cleaned it all (: and wiped and everything hehehe
OMG MY CAT NEARLY DIED TODAY. see i was watching himym and then all of a sudden there was this really weird wheezing sound and i swear i almost had a heart attack when i saw my cat choking, i thought she was gonna die T_T but she didnt hahhaha i kind of half smacked her back and she swallowed wteva it was. ...actually now that i think about it it was probably just a hairball... LOL i forgot cats got those :/ still, she could have died D:
Thursday, January 13, 2011 || 3:31 AM
OMFGGG I WANT A SHOP LIKE THAT. i want another pair of doc martens hehehee maybe like a white one or pale pink or cream or i dno something like that. or maybe red x]
blahhh im really bored.. so i decided i might allnighter today because.. i dno why. loool except my internets beginning to lag so tumblr is frustrating :/ should i paint my nails? hahhaha at 3.30 am... why arent i sleeping?? O_O good question. i believe the answer would be.. sleep is boring XD ofc so is this but sleep is more boring :L
alrightaayyss oh just one last thing.
I WHIP MY MO BACK AND FORTH, I WHIP MY MO BACK AND FORTH
he..hee.. 8]
|| 1:38 AM
the grass is always greener on the other side.
isnt that the truth. why does it seem like everyone else is living the life i want. why can't i be fucking happy.
ps. don't ask me what this is about, i won't answer.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011 || 6:04 PM
i love sleep.
my life has a tendency to fall apart when i'm awake, you know?
blaahh i cbf to blog these days but i dont have anything better to do really :L well today i went to burwood to see the dentist and on the way i got a new necklace from sportsgirl hehe (: because the necklace i wear like everyday broke so i had to get a new one. anyways its one of those long ones with an owl hehhe like the ones that are all over tumblr :L oh and i bumped into a friend who i havent seen for like months hahah its funny coz last time i saw her was also when i randomly bumped into her. nwais met up with karina who was being dog -___- ahhaha so we ended up just catching train back home together :L [doooggg :P hahha jksjks]
why am i always on the computer -___- gahh theres like a bunch of things that i need to do but no im sitting here T_T
ohh hehehe a quiz i stole from joanne:
Tell me about the shirt you're wearing?
ummm its a blue midriff cropped top or wteva theyre called
What's currently bothering you?
haha several things that i wont say :L
Be honest. What do you look like and does it bother you?
hmm im okay with my face i guess. sometimes it looks okay and sometimes its like T_T lol
What do you currently hear?
my radio (: which is playing the song sing by.. i forgot the artist
When was the last time you had your hair cut?
A few months ago like august or something
When were you last outside?
about half hr ago haha
Does the thought of marriage scare you?
yeaa. its such a massive commitment and ive seen way too many failed marriages to have very many romantic notions about marriage. hah in my mind marriage is like tying yourself down to one person, but how are you supposed to be sure that thats a good thing? how do you know that the love wont die in a few years. however, i do want to get married because id rather be in a difficult marriage than be alone.
What are you doing today?
already told u wat i did today and tonight ill probs practise some clarinet, skype, fb, tumblr, watch pretty little liars and maybe clean the house
Look to your left, what is there?
my phone, my whiteboard, my speakers/radio thing and the wall, oh and my cd rack
What time did you go to sleep last night?
3.15am
The way to win your heart?
hmm make me laugh, make me happy, be a good person, umm a good listener who actually kind of cares :L make me feel special, and if i dont have to try and i can just be myself without being judged
What are you going to do this weekend?
umm a friends coming over so we'll go for a swim and chill.. and nothing else planned yet
Were you happy when you woke up today?
sort of. no.. yes.. lol i was neutral
Would you ever donate blood?
hahha yeaa
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
hahah well i dont have a reason to cry, is that good enough? :L
Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else?
for family and friends i think i would
Could you forgive a boyfriend or friend who physically hurt you?
hmm depends how bad the physical abuse was.. but yea probably. beats emotional pain anyday :L
Do you open up to people easily?
HAHHAHA i would spill my heart out to a stranger if they were willing to listen and care
Has anyone upset you in the last week?
yea
What's the last pill you swallowed?
lol a pill for hayfever this morning.. which reminds me i need more hayfever medicine :L
What's the first thing you thought this morning?
WILL MY BROTHERS SHUTTUP I WANT TO KEEP SLEEPING .. (: something along those lines haha
Who do you blame for your bad mood today?
myself
Where is the person you like right now?
lol in his house
What was the first thing you did this morning?
umm shout at my brothers to shuttup probably. then find some earplugs because they wouldnt listen to me :L
Do you care of what people think of you?
hahhaha unfortunately, yes
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
O_O uhhh.. i dont remmeber.. probably my family overseas?
Is it hard for you to get over someone?
hmm well that depends on how big a part of my life they were, but umm i think i can get over ppl? :/
Ever had a near death experience?
LOLOL crossing the road in china. almost got hit by a car who didnt stop for me and my stepmum, there was also a motorbike that only just missed us. oh also in china when i was driving the golf buggy but sprinklers suddenly turned on and i think i closed my eyes because then my stepmum tries to turn the buggy and i look up and realise we wouldve gone off the cliff thing if she hadnt turned the steering wheel :L HAHA that was actually like the funniest thing of my life
Where do you want to go university?
lol no idea yet preferably not sydney.. i wana go somewhere new (:
What's your favorite season?
summerr XD
What was your favorite grade?
umm year 8 probably (: it was the most peaceful year and i achieved better than my new years resolution haha. oh but then kindy-year2 were also really good years
Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you?
lol if i was dying maybe :L otherwise.. i dont think so
Are any of your friends pregnant?
totes. its quite distressing :/
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
hahha yeaa, almost everything
Can you whistle?
very badly (: hahah i remember my friend and i spent the whole of year 1 trying to whistle and by the end of the year i could do it ..sort of (: hahha i cant whistle tunes or anything cool though T_T
Last time you saw fireworks with who & where?
do firecrackers count? haha coz then china with my family and cousins and uncles and aunts and family friends :L they. were. so. much. cooler. than. fireworks. like. omg. XD OH i have a pic of a firecracker actually...
how cool is that, it's like a tube of light and colour
Tuesday, January 11, 2011 || 2:11 AM
hahaa ok this post is for karina because jesus is so bored she needs me to write for her :L
so today i started watching pretty little liars which is soooo good but its like kinda scary. coz its bout these best friends who like get stlked and keep getting msgs with all these secrets that only their dead friend should know. loool anyways i probs shouldnt watch it at like 1am when its dark and im alone and stuff because fuuck so scary T_T im gona have nightmares of being stlked now T_T
lol nwais this is meant to be short GUESS WHAT GUYS my mum is going overseas til feb soo HOME ALONNEEE FKYESSS x] except ill probs just be bored :/
and where is the sun these days? -____- it was cloudy in china and now its cloudy here. my tan is fading D: noooooooooo hahhhahaa but apparently u can get a tan even if its cloudy so HEHEHEHE. OMG AND AND im so devooo becauuse my friend went to jamberoo like last week and she said she wouldve taken me if i wasnt like halfway across the world T_T dammiit i wana go to jamberoo lools
oh 2.30am... maybe i should sleep. sighh the things i do for you jesus :P
im hungry. goodnight guys (:
Monday, January 10, 2011 || 12:42 AM
"finish every day and be done with it. you have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." - Ralph Waldo Emerson (and stolen off joanna XD)
i like that quote.. but its one of those things thats so much easier said than done. lol i know im about 10 days late but it only really hit me that its a new year today when i had to write the date on one of those airport card thingos. i dno if anyone else feels this way but the fact that its a new year really scares me. alot. lol maybe its because 2010 was such an...interesting year and so much changed and now i have to ..settle down kind of. just feels like there is soooo much i need to do this year in like every aspect of my life ..and i have to do everything right. fml. dont you just hate how life sucks sometimes? -__-
hahaha nwais IM HOME FINALLY (: and now i can FINALLY fb stalk and tumblr and etc all i want (: ahhhh bliss.. hehehhe. cbf to write bout my holiday atm so maybe tmrw
